was selling 200-300 points away OTM options and there was large move on expiry day to kill me
Market never cares about us or what even we think. As you are an option trader like me, you must know this any way (even if you are a pure future trader). So what have you done or missed in your trade which brought you in such a miserable situation?
On the other hand: It is very exiting to be in such a trade, as the whole brain and body is working on highest level how to get out of it at its best.